i am sad.

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my head hurts. and i haven't slept in days.

although i have a feeling i will finally be able to sleep tonight! (been off steroids for two whole days combined with supreme tiredness) hope it's not just wishful thinking.

school's ok. better than it was. it's kind of depressing though; i realized that all the people that came in with me will be done in a year or two and i'll still be slogging through (and be REALLY old in comparison with most others).

rrrrrrrrr

somewhat dissatisfied with certain things right now. but as they say, why worry? change what you can, and what you can't, just tell it to fuck off...oh wait...that's not how it goes? shit....

i don't think i'm doing that well in school. i get my first test back tomorrow.

i could do better at my job. some days it's just SO BORING.

i still feel kinda crappy. and unfortunately, telling my sinus infection to fuck off didn't work. so i got antibiotics. :) hopefully they will work. i also got steroids, which have me all jacked up and are the reason I'M STILL AWAKE EVEN THOUGH IT'S PAST MY BEDTIME.

mom might have CMV again. :(

i miss caleb.

quote

"Just because somebody doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have."

Anonymous

school stress is part of my life again. gah.

but i feel better equipped to not freak out so much in other aspects of my life.

that is all.

disappointed

in myself. i don't know if i can be as detached and unflappable as i need to be. i don't know if i can do anything without throwing myself into it with such force that i smother it.

:(