unloading

sooo i have a LOT of shit to unload. i've been so amazingly ridiculously insanely busy over the last month, and it's only going to get worse from now till may 1st. (that's when both of my finals are).

where to begin.....

time: i feel like i have NONE of it with which to do what I want to do. (read, sleep, clean, cook, whatever). even though this is not ENTIRELY true, it pretty much is. i'm in the end-of-semester state where i just hunker down (i love that phrase, it makes me laugh) and concentrate on two things to the detriment of everything else. right now, those two things are work and school. i stayed at work all night monday night to finish a term paper for school and then worked the next day. sigh.

money: my cat had a semi-emergency and the subsequent vet visit/medicine/IV fluids totalled 382.17. wow. good thing i have an emergency fund.

also money: the house. as it stands right now, i will be more than okay. however, i keep being afraid there's something i won't know till it's like 8 grand to fix. (however, the house is new as far as framing and everything, so it doesn't need any improvements. just stuff the builder didn't finish because he went into foreclosure. however, he is agreeing to fix the two most dire things, and i am very excited about that, cause they weren't going to be cheap. and that leaves more room in my post-moving-in budget for surprises). so i'm mostly excited about the house. i just want to move in RIGHT NOW.

school: i really despise my one class. and it's really taking a huge toll on my motivation for school in general. fortunately, i think that is the problem, not the fact that i don't want to be an engineer at all, which is a huge relief.

more school: there will be a class offered this summer. do i take it and graduate with my master's a semester early (december 2009 instead of may 2010) or do i take a much-looked-forward-to break? it won't be a HUGE workload, i've had the teacher before and like him, and it's on structural modeling (mostly using GTSTRUDL, which i'm already familiar with). however, my work schedule will most likely be a bit more demanding this summer, and it is three days a week from 1:30 to 2:20, and that's a lot of gas those three days. i could take MARTA on tues/thurs though and defray the cost a bit. i plan on bringing up the topic for discussion at simplicity, they usually see sides of things that i don't and i need that perspective right now.

more money: i need brakes. not DESPERATELY, but SOON. and my brakes are not cheap. sigh. however, i plan on doing the work myself, which will make it significantly cheaper.

self-care: i'm stressed all the time, i don't exercise, and i've been eating like total CRAP the last three weeks. so now i don't sleep well either. i plan on starting to walk for 30 minutes to an hour at least twice a week. maybe rope people into playing frisbee with me too. i MISS exercising (and i never really liked it to begin with, so you know it's bad). i also don't ever, ever relax anymore, and while i know it's temporary (may first, here i come!) it's still taking a toll.

more house: so....i have to pack up all my shit and move in two weeks. timing sucks. never ever ever start your lease anywhere near finals, is the moral of this story. but on the flip side, I GET TO MOVE IN TWO WEEKS (and a day). anyone want to help? lol. (i have some help so if not i won't be offended. moving sucks).

also i want to sell a bunch of crap on craigslist and/or in a yard sale but haven't had time to go through everything yet. oh well. baby steps.

there are silver linings though. narnia's kidneys are not failing (yay!), i have a HOUSE!!!! (triple yay), i'm almost done with the semester, and i kinda feel like i maybe know a little bit of what i'm doing at work now. plus, i have the most awesome bf in the ENTIRE world who is helpful and supportive and snuggly and caring and awesome. all in all, life is good, i'm just stressing out quite a bit right now. and i'm SO TIRED most of the time. :/

soldiering on!